You Will Never Know

You Will Never Know

He broke your heart when he said “I love her”

Your father left you and your mother for a woman he met at a pub

Your mother is depressed and alcoholic beyond belief

You buried your sorrows in a fake smile

Your grades are no better, slipping beyond your grasp, way beyond saving

Your “best friends” talked behind your back, sending knives with sharp ends sticking out of your spine

You are popular, pretty, the whole student body worships you

But somehow, you feel you are an outcast

Maybe even less than an outcast

You are on the top yet, you don’t feel the happiness they associate you with

One day, you’ve had enough, enough is enough

So you went ahead and asked the help of a pothead who hangs out in the school’s dumpster

A small favor in exchange for a few bucks

You asked for something that will set things right

You believe this something will make the pain go away

That this something will finally give you the happiness you’ve always craved for

When he arrived with the package you can’t wait to get this done and over with

But then you felt sad, lonely even

Is this the only answer to your problems?

You only wanted to be happy but should there be a price to pay for that?

Just then, you noticed a note inside along with what you ordered

Tears run down your face while reading the words written in an almost illegible writing

You presume that pothead, that pothead you’ve always ignored was the one behind the note

You can’t help but smile and throw the package to the nearby bin

Others might be wondering what was written on that yellow paper

It says:

“There are many things left for you to discover

So many things better than what scarred you

But once you take that small, white pill in your hand…

You will never know

You will never know…”